22.

i am 22 years old
i've got 22 ashes in my lap
22 problems
and 22 thousand unwritten words
22 thoughts running through my head
22 million dreams all unfulfilled
22 nightmares every night
i need 22 hours of sleep
and 22 more a day to work
i've wasted 22 years
on the wrong things
i forgot 22 birthdays
i lost 22 friends and gained 22 more
i kept 22 love letters
and threw none out
i have 22 dirty dishes in my sink
i lost 22 phone numbers
and remembered one
i cut myself 22 times
and my soul a million more
it took 22 years to realise
that even with all the boys in the world
i'd die for just one.

V.